Sometimes there're so many things going on in our lifes,
that we forget to think about us, we just forget to think
only one minute of ourselves and how we feel.

Today I thought about my feelings, my life, everything.
And I cried. Not because my life is a bad one..
but because of how I feel these days, actually the last
few months. I was so busy by getting my school life
together, that I stopped thinking about me.
Sure, school for example is something, I do for myself,
to become a well educated young person, but.. what about
all the other things?

I really feel like I'm a no one. I'm asking myself what's
special about me, what's something I am actually
good at? Maybe better than others..
What do people think of, when they think of me?
I guess most people just think that I'm friendly and stuff.
I mean, I am friendly and kind, I would say..
but that can't just be everything.
What am I supposed to see in myself, if no one else
is seeing something in me?
I wanna be someone who people want to be with too,
as much as I want to be with them.
I feel like I am seeing things in others, who don't even
think about what they value of those who are around
them.
I also wonder about what I did through the last 20 years.
Feels like all I did was going to school and being
a boring nerd.
I feel lost, as if I'm drowning in my own life.. just because
I have the feeling to not know who I actually am.
I mean who am I? I really don't know..